1st Confession

Ok my first Motherhood confession.

To get the cleaning and cooking done... I plop my kids in front of the tv. I tell myself it is ok because there educational dvd's that there watching, but I feel like crap about it. When It was just Joshua and I all day, He did everything with me. When I was cooking he sat in the kitchen and played or colored in a high chair, when I would vacuum, or get the mail I put him in a baby carrier and he did everything with me. I even laid down with him and watched him sleep.

Did I love my first child more?

Did I just think I was a good parent?

Was I only ment to have one child?

What did I do wrong?

Why can't I still be supermom with 2 kids? Other moms do it all the time. I have even heard on rare occasion there are even supermoms with teenagers. When will I be able to juggle two kids with my day to day crap, Like I did with just one? Or am I just lacking in the motherhood DNA.